2019! Can’t believe it’s already 2019. Last year flew by so quickly that I couldn’t catch up. As the new year approaches, I realized how little I invested in the blog. I’ve been lazy and I’ve been neglectful. This really sadden me. I didn’t want to give the space up but I also didn’t have the time I thought I can invest. *sigh*
So what happened? Well, a lot of things but everything is OK and everyone is healthy. I’m not going to justify my laziness but in case you’re wondering …
Work. Work. Work
This is the biggest and self explanatory reason on why I have not been here. Biggest factor and non-negotiable variable in my daily life. I need to pay the bills yo! As much as I want to binge endlessly, this space does not pay for my necessities.
Mindfulness & Balance
This is like everyone’s goal lately however I sympathize. I intentionally lessen the time I spent online and paid more attention to myself and my family. I knew I have to limit avenues that can stress me and being online too much didn’t help. I am an introvert with literally no social life but spending too much time online is unhealthy.
The internet is full of trolls and in the scheme of things, they don’t contribute to anything in my life. Don’t force yourself or convince yourself otherwise. So I paid less attention to the noise with no regrets.
Less Kpop
Ahh here we go!
Damn! Damn! Damn! And damn!
I felt suffocated for some reason. Having no Big Bang this year didn’t help either.
Then there’s the big elephant in the room that I won’t get into it because it truly breaks my heart. I know about it, read about it but I’m choosing to not discuss it here. It’s not denial or #myoppaisinnocent bullshit. They did it and if needed, I am all for paying their dues. That’s just how it is. However, it’s still ongoing and it’s messy. Just wish it didn’t involve people of works I enjoyed because there’s no going back from it. People do stupid shit and I am beyond disappointed and angry at this point.
Made me realize that people destroy all their hardwork with stupid decisions. Fighting tooth and nail to succeed and maintain popularity to only blow it off.
I also unfollowed and skipped reading threads like r/kpop. It doesn’t give me pleasure anymore. I wanted to pay little to no attention to toxicity and bullshit. I already took a few steps away prior but now I’m taking it further. The industry is becoming way too negative for me.
The more you immerse yourself in the fandom or the industry, the uglier it gets – one way or the other. Don’t make this your way of life. Enjoy the music but don’t get carried way by the high!
Kdramaland and its plethora of meh
There’s no doubt that 2018 was a year of duds for me. Although I watched a fair number, I only reviewed 2 for 2018! 2! I have watched a ton of shows but my eagerness dissipated due to the “mehness”.
Also, I noticed that my taste changed drastically. Before, I was eager and religiously added each release to my queue. I was curious, I was hungry. But then I realized that I can never conquer them all. Everything isn’t a hit either. And it is OK to pass and move on.
In tandem with this, I noticed that I stopped paying attention to some actors that I originally liked. Without overthinking it – Lee Seung Gi and & Ha Ji Won. Nothing to do with their acting, my taste just changed.
I’m hoping to post more regularly but I won’t make any promises.We’ll just have to see.
That’s it for me. How’s your 2019 so far?
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